I think this is the last to write blog...
coz i found a job..
u all also dont believe,there is chef assistance...
hahax
is tht funny?
but there is some benefit and also disadvantage...
for benefit: can get salary
can waste some time
can try to help chef to do something
can learn some new dish,example japanese foods
for disadvantage:
i can;t folo u all go anywhere...
except u all folo my date,haha
can't go shopping TnT

i hope i dint choosed a wrong job...and somemore i have to train 2 days..so if hard then i will quit this job!! hahax

Problems keep coming through my minds!!

Problems problems problems....
i thought my Spm finished so i can relax..and wont think anymore just enjoyZ!
but at the end the problem keep coming and more worse..
even i tried to solve it! but it so hard to do..
my mum problemss...
mine problems....
today is my last day exam tht means i 'MERDEKA''
but not really...
some arguement this evening,
doesn't have any mood to chit chat...

Sorry My Frens,
i have some problems,tht can't accompany u all go anywhere,
i know u planned everythings..
if u dono my problems u won't know it!
i hope tht u will forgive me,
but i promises...sure one day i will go with u all...
wadever anywhere...

UNFAIRS!!!!~

Today is the second day,she at hospital?!!
but i also havent went there to visit or do anything!!~
Come on la!!
Damn Shit la!!!~
not even care about us!!
say jamming den...wad to do!!
sitting on the sofa
seeing the clock turn become hours and hours...
say he work, we have to wait and wait!!
somemore everybody all go b4...but me even one step also
havent in...
when i called..
den said! we wan to go back ed..lets go to ah yee hse...
say tomolo and tomolo and tomolo...
never do it b4!!!
today said ''tomorrow'',tomorrow den said ''tomorrow'',after tomorrow den said '' tomorrow''
all this words and this things is such a rubbish!!!~

Hope you get well!!~

Dear! my Grandma!~

You're the greatest for us!!
Dont give up!!~ u will be more health than the last time!~...
Remember! 11 of us (GRANDCHILD) will giv all the support to u!!~

tOday..feel very sad~wanna cry..
while i typing in this blog..
my tears wanna drop + hearing a song ''Tong hua'' as i know
the song is not suitable for in this case,but the tone and the lyrics is so
full of meaning!!!
and in my mind..review back all the scene tht we all with her!!~

using 7 hours to checkup and treaments~~
Finally,her heart beat become normal...after a few injections
but she nid to wear a oxygen things!
so depress when i heard it!
i juz wanna go there but can't!!!
my little brother having fever and vomit!
and bcoz of tht,3 of us can't go..
only 3 of us! others went there!!

anyway! i know her,will forgive us,tht we can't go there..
coz our support will be always with her...

SPM coming!
i havent even touch sejarah books..
and now having this case..feel depress..
i dont know others can feel it ornt?
Please giv some support and GOD giv some energy to
face this all problem tht keep coming!!

Today Pn.Fazia came in our class man!!
she came in the class with the full of angry spirit! Damn Scary!
She bought our ''laporan Prestasi''...and
call everybody name...and one by one say out our the weakest subject...
finally i'm the 9th in the class...so she said:
1.pls polish ur bm
2.how come u will get maths in C?? u should get A..
coz u science stream...and when i was younger,my all chinese frens..
all get A in all subject..y u can't get it??
3.and pls pls pls polish ur physics and chemistry...
4.try to do more excersices..and class...pls stop playing Facebook!

OMG!! i was like shocked with the 4 things...but i still gt 1 more things not statisfied is,
teacher should not blame with all the things...
somemore should see our teacher 1st...
coz especially Pn.Zainun and Pn.Rohimah...
the way they teach students is the most Crazy...if Pn.Rohimah can called sleepy class...
and Pn.Zainun is called No Space class..y? coz she controls us untill like a pets...haizzz

Baju Melayu

Please don't laugh or feel weird when u see this pictures....coz this is my first time wear this ok?

I dont y? all malays school must be wearing a traditional clothes...even now chinese etc..cheongsam and samfu..is the most expensive and it more than rm 200++

so for the teacher wishes...

finally i choosed a Baju Melayu...somemore now our ''konsep 1 Malaysia''

sure they'll agree wad i wearing for the graduation's day!!

and pls stop laughing!!!(perasan*)

Here's the third day of useless,
today i took a chemistry paper...OMG only 33 and haven't add
3 more marks for the bonus...
if added...same still fail..
damn feel wanna to desperated...
after that..
english lesson,
i thought teacher,it wont came to school for the whole 2 weeks,bcoz of the muet..
but suddenly she came...haiz
y feel sad??
coz someone is trying to showing off with their marks...i mean HIGHEST MARKS!!!
finally,he happy untill like a monkey jump here and there...
he got 90...
the highest in the class and the form 5 students...
luckly i'm not the bad...only get 63 zzz
I was thinking...when i will become like him...
No such things!!???
but i tried to think the whole day....about college..
what course should i choose??
accounting??
bussiness man???
engineering??
or a physician??
haizzzzzzzzz
nothing i can choosed...

haiz....
the second day of useless...
and more things and points tht show me i'm the useless..
sad...
today,i get my add maths results...OMG...32 only..
Shit?~!!
i like nvr study b4...like nvr do study group b4..
just like form 4,nothing in my mind about add maths...
i study all the things gones where..
and also get my physics results...paper 1 only 25/50
paper 2 18/100
damn sad...
and i have been peoples laugh for the results for the whole period of the school...
it said: ''hahax someone said he go tuition,but nvr get good results...but not like me...no tuition also can get the good results''
its so embarassing!!
and useless to me...
but its true,i study so hard,i read so many things,i done so many excersices...
but dint get any good marks...this is just only a trial...the most important,
but if SPM...
sure kanasai!!
now waiting for tomorrow useless day....

Useless

Sad...
Dono why..
feel like i'm the useless in this world...
nothing can giv to my family,educations,and this world..
i heard from my friends...
one of my friends,now was studying England,
and the results is good..
Not only my friends but others ppls...
better than me,at every points...
This trial Spm,i think i will get the poor results even
thought i get the tips...or leak...
but i still cant make a good results..
Spm is coming 41 days more...
i still have a time to play facebook...
play games...
even i write my blog..
but see the others...
like my friend...now she still can make a fan fictions
this show she have many time to think,
she now is very confident the marks and all the things,
or someone...told me tht his results is very good in maths and add maths,
damn it!
anyone can be a supporter...try to support me,with the silent and secret....

SuCh a Daring Day

Ushhh...today! i mean first time to do this thing
in my whole life..i will never ever do it again,except i'm
the very very bad Boy..
I WAS PONTENG SCHOOL...!!!
fuYOH!!...
with a group of my friends..(malays)
not chineses...special leh...hahax
After the exam,we were boring and nothing to do...
somemore teacher not coming in the class..then
1 of my friend was suggested...
A:''Jom!,Kita balik la''
B:''Macam mana nk blk?? ada pengawal''
C:''Haiyo! Pengawal tu,akan anggapkan kita ni,students of PMR!''
B:''ooo! ok...jom jom!!!"

then we finally walk throught out the Big Gate,
and the guard was looking at us...like some kind of weird..
and we just act,dont care about him,just straight away....
hahax...
tht time my heart beats...was like running 100 metres,
at the end,we stand at bus stop and we laugh untill the whole bus stop area also heard...
and i look for the watch...there is ...1.50...wakakax
i took early for 40minutes...
but i prefer to go back early as like SPM time...
we can come early and go back early too....
First time experiences....

Yeah my new poem!! this is the 2nd poem!

""The Beginning of Life"""

A wind blow on your mind,
A water deep in the sea,
The thousand miles is beginning,
From the one step to the front,
Days to day to struggled and triumphs
with the life's creature,
We must to encounter challenge,
one by one,
Every decision that we making is road that to,
gain experiences.

Finally ,this poem made in 3days 2 night!! happy!

For the Form 5 students!!!

To the person who always view my blog...
I tell you..you don't show off infront of me..!
This not call show off..but is damn shit u!!
You all talking like a shit whatever you said!!
pls don't make me laugh you all...
I don't think u all so best! or even perfect..
I just don't want to say more details..
bcoz it doesn't effect you anything!
but i tell you!
everytime i see you...or i hear you saying!
i feel wanted to vomit!
Your way to talk and your way to act..is like a dumb!
Crazy Dumb and NOt suitable become a human..!!
Try to become a monster ba..
is maybe suitable for u all!
Bcoz all ur act will be look likes a monster DISASTER!!
i wanted to bawdy,but this is my bloggie,i don't want you to
make it dirty..
pls for the last thing!!
DAMN YOU!!!

Two weeks holiday gone~~
The new week started by today!..
Once step to front,everything will be changed..
No matter is difficult problems,sure have a ways to solve..

This poem is created by myself..
but i wonder,is this poem can be success?
Today go to school,quite boring..
but i founded something that changed and gained
there is..physics and add maths..
I think my physics and add maths have improved..
luckly two weeks holiday din't wasted..
and feel the 2 subjects is quite easy..
and this is the first time,all my friends especially male..came ask me..
''how to do this questions??"" OHW...feel like i'm popular..
anyway wanna thx to my frens that helped me in the
study group....THANK YOU!!
TO: Jasmin Yong qi
Pui yeng Yong Lin
Joyce Lim
Sze lyn

Yes..Finally have bought 1 pair of contact lens...Baush and Lomb
is just only Rm28..included multi-proposer solutions..
First time,wear very pain,like something stucked in my eye..the tears keep drop down
like wanna cry..
my dad said: Relax and slowly take it out...pheww..(took out dy)zzz

Finally, this year watched a movie ''Resident Evil 4 After Life''' in the cinema!!
I thought this year won't watch any movie ,because having SPM!
This crazy movie make ppls shocked during u watching...in like sleepy
or anything...''syok man''!! hahax
i was shocked 3 times..
1 more things...it write down 18PL
but my little bro din't scare at all,juz shocked only...!
if who gt any heart disease or craven...please..dun watched it!
u will regret!...

Today,i treat my family and jasmin,eat dinner at Kim Gary..
and took some pics..^^

Promoting the Dish!~~~


The Menu!!
Nice to see,but din;t get the voucher...sob..
My two little brother and sister!!~
this menu have a special sets....
nice to see only!~

Please go feedback..Bosco Wong need you!! hahax...
That is my mum and dad!! lovely~~

Wrapped Fish in Egg Shanghai!!!~~

Country Set!!~ (little bro)

Fried Pork Chop with shanghai!~(little sister)
Cheeessssee Baked Rice Pork Chop!!!~ yummy with many cheese!!~ (mum)


This is mine...Cheeesee Baked Rice Beef Steak!!



and the last...(Rm 95.90) wad the....

Today no mood to write blog..
i feel like now,i'm not so interesting in fb..
is it all because of our study group..
it make me,the fb is not so important anymore.
makes me more depressing..when i on..
Is that our future is more important than now??
but if our future is important..then wad should i do now?
study?
work?
or what??
lets say if now is important,then wad
should i do it??
relaxing?
start study?
or just have a cup of ice lemon tea
sit down watch the sun up and down?

Anyway,yesterday..my cousin sister was resign her job!!
First time i saw her so brave to do that thing..
this is bcoz she was always bully by a staff..
somemore when she resign,the boss said ''i was waiting for u to resign for a long time ago''
OMG!!~ i'm not believe,got this boss..
i feel very weird..
If our future is very important,but why we should to be more easily to
make it over??

This is the picture



and the places:: Show Stage



Our place...




This is the pass,tht need to go in...

Arghh!!! help me,
my muscle and backbone pain!!!
but i have learn many things bout travel tour,
luckly jasmin din't go...is very hard,is hard than our last time work
at Pappa Rich!! somemore at night need to walk back...zzz
anyway it get salary today!! yeah!!!~byebye gtg,,,

I have a good news and a bad news...
this good news..tomorrow i will go work as my part time job..for 2 days only
and i will get my salary on the spot..juz only work for 12 hours included rest times for 2 hours
maybe i get this money,i will make it become more like responsibility for my family..(joking)
maybe this money,i can buy everything i like,is quite fun! Chinese New year is coming,i can buy as what i like...and even can make my family more ease the burden...hahax

the bad news!!!
exam is coming..
trial..also the most important!!!
but juz only 2 days,who cares,but now my heart's feeling,like very scared of this work..
after i do..
however,now i juz study abit things only,...zzz

Nevermind,i think work can't effect me,except i'm not a man!!! ok!! this salary,1/4 i will used on
my study as my promise...!!!

Arghh!!! help me!!

today, i feel headache and tired...

i had drinked a cup of coffee!

haiz...somemore trial SPM is coming

need to study!

However,no time do any blog.

there way i can do is pray to the GOD!

i have to pray and pray:

1) have to get 9A+

2) to have more energy

3) and always health

4)and easily to understand the weak subject!

Happy!

Yeah!! ytd we go shopping at sunway pyramid!...
with my family and jasmin..
we go celebrated my little bro birthday!
we go Pepper Lunch restaurant..for our dinner..
and i have took some pictures..



this is Chicken Pepper Rice..



and this is Beef Pepper Rice! yummy!!




And this is my desserts...Black ForestCakes..only me and my bro hv..




This yummy salmon and crab eggs sushi is my sis treat me...yummy!!!~

Thats all...~ however our dish is simple,but we still happy to celebrated!!

Sad 5~

everytime,do anything...
i will prefer to frens or trust them,
but not family..
but this time i really not going
to trust them anymore,
even how good you are...
From now on,i will not going to yours
party...or anything,
because i will not invite you too...
now i only know that family is the most important for me..
family only can be trust...

Sad 4~

i feel very disappointed to you all,
i make the event for you all come out just for fun,
but some said,maybe...some said not going to join,
i make this event,
also one of my aim that to test u all,
to know how long our this friendship..
i dont know why,everytime i make a event,
sure have problems come out..
the problem is,
if i call the one guy,to join..
the rest of 5 of them,they will not going to join,
this is make me no choices...
sometimes,i feel that you all are too over,
or sometimes i think u like always making the trouble
and trouble,
even this is a small event,
you all are making me can't be accepted...
if this small event,you all cant make it,
i think our future,
also will be like this,as same now ur results...

now i'm not hope you all to know that,now my feeling are sad..
but to know that you all are too over for me!!
if i really next time make this event,or more bigger..
on maybe, forever i will not invite you all,
except i have a reasons....

you still can...if u believe...

Think
when you were still a kid,
think when you were a kid,
everything is possible,
you climb up the tree,
not knowing that you might fall,
you simply made it,
You just had an idea and made it happened,
because you believe,
you were then,creative with strong belief ,
As you become a adult,
seem to be little things different,
When you failed in your exam,
you think ''i cant make it'',
When you start to become a business,
you think "maybe it is not as easy",
When you already in business,
you heard someone NOT to take a risk,
And you said "I am not sure in everything",
you are creative but with more doubt,

Try to think when you were kid,
When back then you strongly BELIEVE,
It is not too late..
you just need to have an idea and make it happen..
YOU STILL CAN...IF YOU BELIEVE
CREATIVE is start from a BELIEF

This things,to remind the whole citizen in this world...
not try to despair easily,
because if u have idea,u will make it,and
if u think u can...whatever things and problems,
also can do it!!

Am i a stupid person?
i hate myself,
i'm the last person in this 8BFF's group
everything in my life,
i be the last one
whatever on,
life e.g : attitude(become mature)
playing games,
driving tests,

haiz..
i think our 8BFF
will be nt longer,
nowadays,my fren(yx) having her problem,
and py,also having many emotional..

so good to see jasmin having happy family
joyce having a lovely couple
jocelyn no need to worry her studys!!
sharyel and ylnn too...

however,maybe this my fate,
to be a useless and the last
in everything
if who read this blog
pls dun excessive me,
or make me cheer up!
especially our 8BFF

Angry 3~

Damn angry,sh!t man!~
wad the heck,2 days no on9!
bcoz my bro having a exam! and i have no regret
coz i was agree for to lock the computer!
to make him more concentrate for his examination!
usually on friday we will on9! our dad will open the computer
so,at 12.45pm we call him...he said ok wait me coz i having a meeting
and i have to wait and wait,untill 4.30pm
he also nt coming back yet or giving me the passwords..
so i was damn crazy,bull shit,dun wan to wait anymore!
juz dun wan to play after he open for me!
i juz let my sister play!!~

Sad 1~

Yesterday! have a german guy came our school! damn tall!
but actually my main point is nt this,..
now all teenager,especially girl like to more fat hao..
well you know,that time they know,the german guy having a chemistry class
in the lab! OMG!!~ they giv a big reaction n scream here n there,said: whoa
a german guy came our school,nice leh!! so ''yeng(cool)''
tall and blonde hair,and blue eyes..
hey! dont u think like embarrassing our school,like never seen b4!~
haizz,
or maybe embarrassing our country too,just only exchange students only wad?
who cares? dont u think u all now teenagers,girls so fat hao meh?
i know many ppls comments said,this is normal,but pls dont like that la!!~

Angry 2 ~

23/7/2010
i still rmb this day!!
is the chinese society presentation!!
i feel damn,cr@zy,Fuck!ng@...on that time!
i juz wanna giv her slap or punch to her..
she making herself embarrassing..on that time i was sing duet with
ang(jasmin),this is because without the song,make we both cant sing
better..
after we sang the song, she said :whoa,ang sing ''okla'' coz mayb she everyday gt
say abit mandarin,but she said me,whoa!! how poor ur mandarin!u like talking more than singing(yes!i declare!)u better dun sing la,...and have a words mandarin
that make me damn shit u!!~

once i go back home
i was shared at facebook...
i writed :
To all citizen:pls to rmb this person!! she never see itself first...before she go comments other ppls....without anything!!...i think she is embarrassing herself...pls la,take a mirror and watch ur self first..before said ppls...don't think u r our mum...or a judge...if u do already.then go comments!!! #$%*

i think,she is the most worse than other girls,she is just a person,that never comments ppls..so now she wan to comments kao kao,i think this is a fucking damn person that i seen b4!!~

Angry 1~

This is my blog!! i wanna write anything that i like!!
you are the embarrassing yourself only!!
don't think your english is very good!!
even i'm speak and write also broken english!!
but i dont think your english is very good too!!
i just wanna tell u!!~
please la!! don't think your are so smart!
if u wanna said me,please study the high english educated 1st ok?
before that,show me the certificate!!
to prove your are the HEE'S student...

Happy 1~

This is my first time,went there!!~ OMG!! so many beautiful japanenes girls..
they look like kawai!!
at the night,
they beat the drum(something like that)
all the japanese girls dancings and with the guests too..
Somemore i dancing too,the steps were so easy,
my little bro also know how to dance...hahax
thats all i can said,anyway...
i hope i can go there again!!

Stupid 2~

When i will gonna take my driver's test!!!????
but this year,my mum said i must concentrated on this SPM 1st,if nt u will nt concentrated
on other subjects...haizz
anyway i need to..
zzz,
but my friend told me that,next year will change the packages..
mayb juz only can take one test,that is auto!!
once u used auto u cant take the manual test!!
n more expensive...
i dont know whether is true ornt?! but i still wan this year!!~ T>T
Everyday,saw my friend drive the car,go here and there,without license!!
like showing off!!
but i wont so stupid,without license go drive...hahax
all the ppls doesn't have license but still driving,this is the most stupid in this world,
suddenly saw police...hahax(you know la)
wakakax (stupid)...wakakakax crazy!!~

Stupid 1~

OMG!!~
Study add maths,chemistry and physics is the worse part in my life!!
i'm gonna beat my head on the wall!~
zzz..
boring!!~ played maple but still boring!!
for eliminate boredom..
better go eat something!! wakakakax
now going to eat la...byebye!!~

The Spirit's study

Is that we should believe the spirit's study??
but actually..from pyhscology:
''the spiritual or mental part of humanity''
''spirit is sometimes used to refer to the impersonal, universal or higher component of human nature in contrast to soul or psyche which can refer to the ego or lower element''

i have experience about this..
long long time ago,when i was 15..
during that time i having a PMR,
and i was Damai class,
in the class 1/4 is the chinese
i think it have
more than 5 ppls..not inclueded me...
Therefore,all ppls sure think that in the class have a same race
is a GOOD things..
but actually it has goods and bads
i was remember,that i always get 23rd or 24th in the class
everytime exam will get many donkeys = D and elephants = E
this is because my friends was keep talking and playing with me..
that time i cant pay attention to teacher when she/he teaching!
this is maked me cant be more concentrated,
even many teacher was giving support for me,but not they all..haiz..
About 3 more months to having the PMR,
suddenly, my mind was keep saying,pls dont do that again and again!!
once the 3 months,i was keep running away from them, and not talking anymore
but sometimes talking also will be related to study! hahax is quite funny! ^^
on that time the ''spirit'' was like at the beside to given me power to study!~
finally my PMR results was get 5B 2C..
but unfortunately,i have to sacrifice my old friends..
becauses of the spirit to study that making me to become like this..

Now form 5 having SPM,i wonder,is that my spirits
will do it again?
I hope the coming spirits..
will not destroyed our friendship anymore!~
Is that anyone agree that our spirit's study..
for given us??

Forgive me 1

Haiz..
...
why? why? n why?
why i should suffering with this,
SPM..family problem..n many many problems that coming!
this is out of my control!!
SPM..
is coming..but i still can write blog...chatting...somemore can play facebook
even i promised to my family that must take a good results.
but i keep doing a same thing n same things..
now only left 4 months..STRESSING man..
maybe this is normal for our age..
not just for SPM..
i think who seen this tittle of this blog,sure say
'''why he write so many '''forgive me'''??'''''
i think who knows about me sure know what happened..
even in facebook also many about ''her''
this time i'm very serious,
please forgive me,i know this time i did a very big ''wrong things''
i also hope that you will see this blog and
you will know my heart's feeling!! SORRY!